very rarely do we realize just how fragile we are.
and we do not embrace it until we are reminded.
i was very clearly reminded of this one morning in april.
i'm driving in my car and the sun is shining down on me.
the desert around me stretches out and the beautiful mountains turn to blue sky.
just ahead, a bit of a darkness.
i'm thinking about my best friend taralynn.. and i wish i could see her more often. our memories together remind me of a time when i never felt more alive.
i send her a text, letting her know i miss her already.
jack johnson is singing to me and he blares through my speakers.
then a song comes on by him called "lullaby".
"When you're so lonely lying in bed
Night's closed it's eyes but you can't rest your head
Everyone's sleeping all through the house
You wish you could dream but forgot to somehow
Sing this lullaby to yourself
Sing this lullaby to yourself"
its a soft, slow, beautiful song. one that you would listen to when you're laying in bed trying to fall asleep or sipping a cup of coffee on your porch swing with the one you love, cuddled up while watching the sun set.
it's amazing the way a song can make our mood, the way it can speak to us. how closely we can relate to simple words made so beautiful.
a few drops of rain suprise me as they splash against my windsheild.
then out of nowhere, not just rain but snow. coming down harder now and slamming into my windsheild like a rush and ive just driven into a storm.
i'm driving 78 miles an hour on the freeway.. i turn on my windshield wipers, and jack johnson continues on singing me a lullaby.
before i even have time to take off my sunglasses and turn off my cruise control i hit a puddle of water.
i'm sliding.
i'm sliding off the right side of the freeway still going 78 miles an hour and i can't stop.
i'm rolling.
all i hear is glass.
glass is so shiny and beautiful. it allows us to see into the world around us and brings us light when the world seems so dark.
and when it breaks it's much like the sound of screaming.
glass is breaking and screaming at me. its screaming and threatening my life. i'm holding on to my steering wheel as hard as my hands will let me. all im thinking is.. "this is it. today is the day." it lasted about 10 seconds and felt like 10 hours.
the nightmare finally ends. its over. i open my eyes and i'm upside down.
i'm buried in broken glass and jack johnson is singing me a lullaby.
i take off my seatbelt and i realize i'm okay. i'm alive. i just stole my life from death. if only i could put into words how grateful i am.
as i climb from the wreckage, out the broken window, all i see is a billboard in front of me that says "Jesus Saves".
this day was my miracle. and i still have so much more to live for.
